keep believing

-pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa-

highlights of teachers day week:
- went to mp twice on mon and wed using buying teachers day gifts as an excuse but ended up buying nothing and eating swensens. guilty.
- found out on thurs (after 2.4) that i wasnt in the class photo that was to be given to mrs kay coz of some stupid cg rep. i was very sad. but its settled with a guess whos missing haha. thx to classmates.
- still on thurs, did some ugly graffiti on the pathway to auditorium using chalks. we took 10 ppl, 3 hours (spent most of the time discussing and playing playing) and 5 patches of land (haha) and a box of chalks to draw happy teachers day to 5 teachers. not that we are selfish or what la. long story.

- then went to mp again with classmates to buy teachers day gifts and ended up eating swensens again. but this time we did buy the gifts haha. reached the hostel at 9 sth, tired and hungry. and still had to stay up to wrap up the gifts.

- i was very blurr during the teachers day celebration itself on fri. tired and headache and those looks. bleah. i just hope the teachers were happy.

i dont mind becoming a teacher in the future.
i wish i will have a student like me.

half of my class girls ran 2.4 with chanel on thurs. i hate running, especially after all the sweaty memories in cedar
but i like chanel. and jiajia. they are very nice ppl.
and so i ran with her, too. halfway.
we joked and laughed and (they) sang some chinese songs. chanel kept laughing and we had to scold her to stop wasting her breath and energy. it was one of the happier running 2.4 experience i ever have.
(actually i always have happy running with pat where most of our energy is spent talking and laughing and laughing, but not for 2.4.
2.4 is never happy.)
i left the group after 2 or 3 rounds to join a friend who was running in front, just to find out that she didnt want ppl to run with her or to cheer for her. she ran faster that i did and i failed to push her to finish the run in time.
i was a useless pacer for both that friend and chanel
basically i ran for nothing.

but i got mentos grape from chanel yea.

i think the amount of food i ate yesterday can actually feed the whole population in kediri. i ate so much la. the whole day i never stopped eating and people kept bringing me food. thanks jolene for the twister and marita for the bread boy and mrs teng for the pizza. and now i’m bloated.

btw kediri is a city in java island, indonesia. i dunno where it exactly is. but it is where me and dwee can be related. something to do with our roots and blood. and rizal’s great grandfather or whoever is or used to be the king there (i’m not very sure about this). kediri sounds like kari. hungry.

i read an article on a magazine shin fei was reading yesterday. it’s a reflection by the editor of the magazine who says she had a learning disabilities in school. then i realised hey maybe i have a learning difficulties or some disease related to the way my brains work. i cannot concentrate on my school work (in class, in the hostel, erm basically everywhere), i get dizzy if i think too much (lucky there’s this amazing magic pill called panadol), i cannot differentiate the open and close buttons in lifts (nearly sandwiched people’s grandma before), i barely passed my maths jct despite the fact that i’m an fmaths student. help me.

i am a girl with a messy room and so i deserve to get confined. my room has too many things inside and is never perfectly clean and neat especially with the two big rubbish who just came back from school (and havent bathed yet) laying around when the teachers came to check the room. it’s my fault that i never keep my stuff in the store room and never ask the office to open another store room if all the store rooms are full. it’s my fault that she hated me coz my country caused haze in her country in 1996 (and i heard it’s coming here again, watch out), i have a tv under my desk (she doesnt know this), and paris hilton’s properties are bigger than hers. oh, oh, and there was nothing under my comforter.

ppl who are close to me and i got two days confinement. maybe she just wants us to stay together for two days and taste the gift of staying in this wonderful hostel. she’s nice and pretty.

i have been brainwashed. in exactly the way she wants it.
her daughter is damn cute la.

dirgahayu kemerdekaan indonesia
haayoo whats the meaning
some guy who was having chemistry prelims paper one day earlier than the rest of his ***y school was complaining about this line in the embassy
something wrong with the use of the words i guess
heck
happy sixtieth bday indo!

i went to KBRI (indo embassy) to celebrate indonesian independence day.
i was standing right in front of the line of ‘masyarakat indonesia’ for the flag raising ceremony
then i was reminded of how i hated those ceremonies in indo, getting drenched in sweats under the sun, standing still throughout (which i never could), following the same long and boring procedure again and again. man i never thought i would miss this thing.
its very different now. on 17august05 i felt that everything in the ceremony was so endearing and so home-y. i miss indo school and the flag raising ceremonies. i miss being around indo ppl. i miss feeling belong to where i am. i miss jakarta. sigh.
it was quite dissapointing coz we werent allowed to sing the national anthem and to respect grak and i had to skip school and miss the physics test on quantum physics, nuclear physics, buoyant forces, non viscous and viscous fluids.
but it was fun and entertaining haha.. i had to force myself to stop laughing and talking to myself (coz i wasnt allowed to turn back and talked to pat who was standing behind me) during the ceremony..
anyway i didnt study much for the test.

i went back to school by cab in the afternoon for mr chung’s remedial.
yes i will pass my gp.

just have to mention this
irma tapao a lot of duku and rambutans in her bag
hahhaa.

i’m a newly born part-time mugger. i’m getting the momentum to study, the product of mass and velocity, haha showing off a bit of physics. tho i still don’t enjoy reading notes and doing tuts and listening to teachers but i don’t sleep so much now. i hope this will last til a levels end. for my future.

my room is super super clean and neat now, very happy haha, i think the neatness is already the max, it cannot be any neater, at least for my standard. for maximum point, d(neat)/dt is zero and d2(neat)/dt2 is negative. this is maths haha. and the toilet. it’s even cleaner than pat’s or mar’s. yea. tho there’s still no toilet paper. the sink and the toilet bowl don’t serve the purpose of their existance. dunno what i’m talking.

fanie is asking me to go china with her after a levels for two months to learn more than wo ai ni wo pu ce tau haha. i’m very excited now, imagine all the fun we can have and the shopping.. and the learning experience of course haha. only need to wait daddy to say yes and i will have another motivation to study haha. but i dunno if he will alllow me to go coz two girls staying in china for the whole two months by themselves sounds pretty dangerous. and the cost. and vivi and caca maybe coming to singapore during that period. their favourite sister have to be here and bring them around lah haha. hmm.. i’m not going to pester him to let me go like i used to do last time to get what i want. no more pouting like chicken. i’m a grown up haha.

i have nothing related to chemistry to show off. i suck in chemistry.

swensens anyone?

5 days of holidays
i’m supposed to use it to mug for prelims which is coming in a month time.

i explored suntec with marita and a bit of sherly and pat
haha ended up buying nothing and spending money on food instead
watched charlie and chocolate factory which is now one of my favourite movies
willy wonka, will wonka
it’s funny and touching
impactful, just the kind of movie i like.
(btw according to my pw teacher there is no such word as impactful but i just like like to use it. i believe it is an apt description)

i went to my sister’s place and here i am
i always know i can’t study here
all the more i want to go

this feeling is torturous
you know, the feeling of knowing you have to study but you cannot and don’t want to study
i just need to pray for miracles and pink sun
and get 4 A’s

studying with interest = learning
studying without interest = mugging
quoted from sw’s msn nick

i always think the hostel staff have a very tough job. they have to take care hundreds of angry, rebellious, demanding teenagers with attitude problems who view themselves as the smarter ppl on earth. scholars ba. the hostel staff have to act as parents, and make sure these teenagers are safe. but we are always against them in whatever they do. i guess thats why they are trained to be so hard on us. irritating and unreasonable most of the time. report me to police la, i’m not guilty.

it’s their job. it’s not like they love to torture other people’s kids.
but then again they can try to be be nicer and more flexible.
tho we are smart and supposed to behave like scholars do, we are human, too.
the om is not so bad. behind the baldness and strict face and bad english and bad chinese i think there is a soft side of him. and he’s flirty too. to girls from certain country. i guess indonesians are not attractive enough for him sigh.

hmmm not as fun as last year.. the comm sucks to the core, the emcees sucks even more.. eh it rhymes haha.. very strict this time, please la, it’s asean dance what..
“you smooch, no music.. no smooching, you can dance..”
“guys, you look better with your clothes on..”
“the girl is crying outside..“
“bouncers, bouncers, get into positions..”
“please line up according to your hostels.. nanyang, hwachong, …, cjc. please line up according to..”
haha very funny la.. and all the weird moves the emcees were making.. aiyo..
i think the sec sch ppl nowadays are much more wild and mature hahhaaa.. growing up is optional kids..

it wasnt very difficult to get in tho.. at least not as what we expected.. and i’m very proud to say we didnt pay $20 and we still can get in! (this is for the evil girl) i told her we’d find a way.. haha

dunno most of the ppl there
did paperboy again hahahhaaa
some embarrassing things happened haha.. maluu.. shall not disclose it here
was surprised to see that ri guy.. yes surprised is the word, not happy la..
but lost my nice big red rose so sad
watched rizal’s band.. the flyers.. not bad ya.. oh and his ex roommate has a band to.. farg or frag or sth like that hahahhaaa she will be loved
found out that my juniors are very cute.. had a heart to heart talk with one of them with half a butt on the bus seat.. haahhaaa

like what mrs gan said, “these kids are still very young” (and stupid i must add)
and so they ended it at 11pm.

i did have fun.

the asean dance for sec sch ppl is tomorrow.
and we, the poor but happening jc students, were asked to pay $20 to be allowed to come and entertain these boring sec sch students. whats their problem man. we are willing to help but this is how they are treating us in return. i don’t like the comm and that girl and the other girl. but i like dimira. marita is calling.