keep believing

my mom sent me food and stuff. thanks to dwee i won’t be starving and cold no more.

i went to orchard yesterday to meet alice, cindy, dwee and vidi (in alphabetical order) and to get my stuff. they open a room in lucky plaza. it’s nice and comfortable just to sit and talk tho i’m an outsider. we ugly green (but pretty) people should open another room and be a neighbour to those light brown (off white? creme?) people. but can we afford it?

we had dinner together and i am now officially broke. but my sister is transferring. that’s what sisters are for.

half of the green people have relatives here (e.g me, pat, shinfei) and the other half doesnt bother to collect their result (e.g irma, marita, wendi). it’s so unfair for people like sherly who have to find a place on their own.

as dwee’s two months late birthday present, i got her a book which according to some source dwee hasn’t read and will like but apparently the evil source herself is the one who hasn’t read it yet and her motive is to borrow the book! what a source.

sister called. transferring failed. invalid number. oh nooo.

one of my dad’s daughters got a scholarship to do her master in france. but he’s not letting her to go with a funny reason.

because she’s a girl.

that’s a gender discrimination from our very own dad.

while his other daughter’s future is still uncertain. how if no university accepts her even if she pays double?
arhh.

shishu, wendi, karen, and i went to have lunch at marche yesterday. since i’m broke (shishu: “you are always broke!”), we were on an eat save mission.
and we did it! mission accomplished.
we walk walk and went to dfs to shop. everyone but me bought something. i was tempted by wendi but i managed to be strong. btw wendi looks really funky with her new look.
i got chinese butterflies from shishu. very pretty :)

i met aimee at church! and also a guy who used to stay in dunman long long ago i cant remember his name. what a small little world.

i love the kind of life i’m living now.

“everyone has a brokeback mountain at heart.”
lee ang

tjc astro proudly presents..
TJC pink ASTRO NIGHT 2006
date: 8 march 2006
venue: tjc
time: 730-end
guests of honour: year3 members hehehe
everyone is welcomed but please inform any of the astro ppl first okay.

i’ve spent much more than i earn. sighs. i’m going broke. no more shopping for erlin. no birthday present for erlin’s friends. too bad.

fanie’s msn personal msg:
erlin-> there’s no distance between friends because friendship gives wings to the hearts.
my heart can fly. to sydney. to jakarta. to UK. to malaysia. to the philippines. to surabaya. to US. to china. to thailand. to medan. everywhere la.
=D

i love working on saturdays. the kids are pleasant and huixin takes care of mark and she gets the headache. but it’s the one day in a week that i have to wake up the earliest, when normal working people are still in their dreams. unfairness.

all children should have schools on saturdays la. school is the most important thing a child’s life.

hm but it’s alright, i get to wake up late on other days when normal working people and school children have to rush to work and to school.

i met px in cityhall mrt today. i offered her free tuition. that’s how much i love her. 30bucks per hour. but i can tell from her eyes that she doubts my teaching ability.

px always reminds me of dunman. she stays there like forever.

i bought pipoi a jacket like the one she wanted before.

the past two days when i am not at work, i dig a tub of raisins and nuts and watch raising helen for the third or fourth time.
i have a life.
raising (and nuts) erlin.

i hate being a mean person.
shoo all the evilness in me!

mark didnt stay. no mark, no headache.
he stayed for 3 hours last week. imagine my headache then.

germaine is no longer sick (she was sick the whole time even before i started working there). annie thinks she brought germs with her and thats why we both got headaches last week. she predicts germ will be sick again in april hahah.

the girl who doesn’t know how to do the simplest thing had lesser work to do. but she still doesn’t know how to do the simplest thing. her teacher doesn’t know how to teach is it. btw i am her teacher.

erlin: reshma, what’s 2 times 3?
reshma: 5
sigh.
erlin: what’s 2 times 0?
reshma: 2
sighs.

donovan came in.
“what the heck!”
donovan took his work.
“what the heck!”
donovan did his work.
“what the heck!”, “what the heck!”, “what the heck!”
donovan handed up his work.
“what the heck!”
donovan is a cute primary 2 boy.

frida asked, “how to do all these questions?”
erlin “ermm..”
think, think.
erlin flipped the book, “erm.. this one.. use this formula, this formula, ..then this formula. you manipulate all these and combine them together. next question..”
frida: “oh okay.. i’ll try to do the rest by myself”
hore hore.
independent learning.
headache-free.

shopping here is boring. seriously. it is becoming a chore for me to buy new clothes and stuff. some board should do something about this if they still want rich tourists from poor developing countries to keep coming and shop and help the economy of this prosperous developed country.

if tourism declines, how to put more lights in already so bright underground mrt stations, how to build more lavish stations and busstops. it almost sounds better if those tourists donate their money to their governments instead(if they are corruption-free), setting up electricity in villages or fixing frequent blackouts in cities, building houses for the homeless or building new malls(!?). ironic yes.

who am i to judge? look where i am typing this right now.

i went shopping yesterday and bought nothing.

everyone was against me catching brokeback mountain. they say its a waste of money. great reviews and oscars nominations and golden globes aside, nobody i know who watched that movie already actually think its good. since the timing is also bad, i dropped it. i’m never a big fan of oscar movies anyway. oscar and i apparently have different tastes.

i watched jim carrey’s fun with dick and jane instead. it was fun but it didnt really have any impact on me. it’s just funny.
dick and jane are meant for each other. they love and understand each other and they are so happy together.
i like the part when dick is watching jane sleeping with her swollen lips in their almost empty room. his eyes are watery and he says she is still beautiful. and he starts crying.
that was touching.
if pat and sher watch this, they confirm cry.

for every two marriages that occurred in the 1990s in the US, there was one divorce.
all dicks should look for their janes and marry them la.

there are stuff that men make up to explain things that they do not understand just to make them think they know and feel good about it. and these stuff are not necessarily true and maybe totally wrong.

like the whole astronomy thing.
big bang and big crunch theories are bullsht?

anyways i love stargazing. and i had so much fun in tj astro.
nightsky is beautiful!
lets go to medan to stargaze and eat sate padang.

“who can guarantee that two and two are not five in jupiter?”
hugh mcdiarmid