keep believing

The tragedy of life doesn’t lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goals to reach. Benjamin Mays
The trouble with not having a goal is that you can spend your life running up and down the field and never score. Bill Copeland
Man is a goal seeking animal. His life only has meaning if he is reaching out and striving for his goals. Aristotle
In life, as in football, you won’t go far unless you know where the goalposts are. Arnold H. Glasgow
If you aim at nothing, you’ll hit it every time. Unknown
If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things. Albet Einstein

my boss was telling me how important it is for the kids to have their goals because of the countless number of inspirational goal quotes like the above.
i don’t have a concrete goal, but i know what i want to do with my life and what i want to accomplish. and i’m slowly working towards that.

i’ve been playing classical in my playlist again and again. erlin turns classic! i’m going chinese too. jay chou is my new mike shinoda.

this has nothing to do with goals.

i think ross actually looks better here. eat more, ross..

for the interview today, i had to borrow my sister’s wardrobe to look like a grown up woman who was late for work (it was at 4pm).

i think i looked a bit like rachel greene.

i took a cab from tiong bahru mrt to go to the ulu interview place(followed tuan’s direction), and even the cab driver didn’t know the building also. all the people i met there are guys doing their ns and they are all from rj. the interview went okay, not the best interview i have ever had, but at least i didn’t embarrass myself. though i did say a few significant wrong things (do research before an interview!). on my way home, i got lost and once again i was reminded of the pain that a pair of heels could bring to my innocent feet.

i think heels should have never been invented.
i think men should really appreciate women who wear heels to look good in front of them because man it hurts.
i think my interviewers should offer me the scholarship because i suffered for them. (i promise i will consider their offer)

all in all, i had fun but i think it’s a gone case.

i watched a korean makeover (my girl and i) of a japanese romance drama (crying out love from the centre of the world) on moday. it’s a love story between a guy and a girl who meet in high school, they fall in love, the girl has leukimia, the girl dies, the guy is very sad. overall, i think the movie is more funny than it is sad.

i start to get more pictures about my future.
hore :D
no more worrying if i make the right choice.

mondays and wednesdays are my off day from work, and so far they’re always lazy, useless, wasted days.

so i shall make a list of things i should do on days like this.
- cook some sophisticated food (instant nooddle doesn’t count) instead of going to seven eleven or hawker downstairs in search for food.
- bake cookies. annie makes it sound so fun and easy.
- make konyaku jelly. put in a bowl of water, leave it in microwave. easy peasy.
- shop for gifts. mrs kay (for appraisal form), mr chung (for the b3), some people (birthdays and belated birthdays).
- clean the room. i think this will be in my to do list forever.
- read books.
- do homework.
- meet people :p

i’m supposed to go tj and certify some documents for tomorrow’s interview, but i’m feeling sherly-ly lazy (that is a very high level of laziness). i’ll settle this later.

fmath survivors who can’t wait to do stats and mechanics, plus irma and fuichin.

boys and girls gone mad.

i love them all!

in case you haven’t noticed, pat has replaced the three pats with joey monica chandler phoebe rachel ross! she created many pink skins before, i think she just loves pink la.

erlin meets friends.
thanks to pat :D

today the boss was mean.
she thinks that the higher level people do not need so many teachers around because they are older and independent so she sent my colleague to help the lower level kids.
leaving me alone with a room of teenagers in their puberty.

she doesn’t know that:
the younger ones keep coming to check their work and asking what is wrong and they need constant reminder to focus and to stop bullying the teacher.
the older ones ask hard hard questions and even though the teacher is smart she still needs time to answer.
the girls gossip with the teacher.

one person handle eight students in the higher level while the number of students to teacher in the lower level is two to one.
unfairness.
i shall ask for pay rise.

i was so blur the whole day and it irritated me. i should never leave the house alone (or with sherly only) when i’m feeling blur.

shinfei and yingherng (extras), sherly, chunkiang and i went back to tj yesterday for astronight. the year ones are so cute. they should have come to tj two years earlier so they can join our batch. watched sherly (ciee..) and xiaofan talked, played games, stargazed happily on the roof. we saw orion and sirius and clouds, and mars and people’s hdb room through the telescope.
hey the roof is a good place to held a really cool party haha.

i think it’s good not to bring cash in my wallet and to forget that i don’t bring it because somebody will end up paying for me :D

i didn’t have enough sleep today because i was preparing bahasa tuition for my thirty year old student late last night. bahasa is not that easy. it is so flexible that it becomes complicated.

which one of the following words is correct?
menyukseskan, mengsukseskan, or mensukseskan. (to make something a success)

i asked three singapore-educated indonesians in msn last night. all three gave different answers and all three were very sure that they were correct.
hmmm.
i was confused for a while then i decided, oh well my student doesn’t need to know this word from me.

my student wants to learn good, proper bahasa which we indonesians hardly never use. to pass an exam. he’s weird la.

it was almost a bad day at work today.
i had a colleague calling me sotong and the senior bully staff dumped two very very naughty boys to me.
those boys vandalised the table, they lifted their feet on the chair, they farted, they removed their shoes, they hit each other, they touched each other’s pencil case, they talked soo much.
but i still think they are very very cute creatures.

most students called me teacher.
one called me erlianda.
one called me mister.

“.. you very blur, you next time don’t do too important things in the future hor.”
a colleague.

i’m hurt.

this week was a good week. i only had four hours of work at the centre coz it’s the communication week. i’m not very sure what it’s all about, though i am actually supposed to know it :p
i had a slack and happy week, which means i earned less money and spent even more.

it was my nerdy week too. i went to a total of five national libraries all over singapore in three days: esplanade (with yiling), marine parade (headache), seng kang (no printer!!), hougang (mean auntie), orchard (with ntu sister).
hey i paid twenty bucks for my library card okay, i’ll make sure it’s worth it haha.

it was a sister’s week. my sisters and i spent a lot of time in orchard, nuh and at home. we hardly do that because they are very busy.
god’s been so good to each of us this year so we had a little celebration :)

my working sister was admitted to NUH emergency department early this morning. and so i spent my whole morning in NUH and half of my afternoon in bed, making up for my disturbed beauty sleep.
she doesn’t take care of herself and she never listens to me.
and my parents keep telling me to listen to her because i am the younger one and i always seem to be playful and irresponsible and spoilt to them.
they never know what four years away from home has done to me.
they never see the mature, independent erlin.

my certificates and stuff are all over the floor, being stepped on and kicked around. my ntu sister happened to see my year two jct grades, she saw all my school exams grades and a level result slip, and she came to a conclusion.
erlin’s a level results sure got mixed up with someone else’s.
to that whoever person, i’m very sorry for you and thank you very much.

a few people have told me this:
“shopping with you makes me feel like not buying anything.”
if you want to shop and have no money, call erlin to shop with you.

my thursday started off bad and ended pretty bad. but i had a fair amount of happiness in between :D

i earned 70 bucks in 3 hours doing what i like.
i had fun and a free rhumba frapuccino and got paid for that.

always remember the good things.

“i believe this is my mother. even if i’m wrong, who cares. just be a friend okay, be supportive.”
phoebe to ross.

hey i’ll be a friend to all my friends :)