keep believing

life’s good, life’s good.
LG, LG.
it’s more difficult than it was ten years ago but it gets more interesting too.

my weekend starts on thursday now. i realised i have a relatively slack time table, especially compared to some archi student who gets very happy when chem engin students finally have tutorials to do, since i have no lab this semester. and i have yet to join any cca. but i’m still lagging behind, and it’s only the third week! it’s this familiar feeling again and i don’t like it.
hoy. tutorials must do, lectures must go, webcasts must watch. next week’s resolution. pat, take note.

we had formal dinner just now. the food was disappointing, so supper at seng fong aka sf followed. i was expecting much more than that. i got a box of chocolates from my date. jo lent me a nice tube dress but i just look ugly in dresses. can i get married in jeans. wedding jeans, so cool.

i went to the serene ntu yesterday. to collect my brand new desktop.
thanks chunkiang! thanks pat! thanks sherly!

i’m scared that i’m living my life not placing what is important in its importance, not progressing towards the purpose of my life. prioritize dude.

it is so wrong to make people fall for you just to boost your ego. don’t act like you care if you don’t. people have feelings you know. of course it’s a whole other issue if you are too charming and you just can’t help it. but spreading your charm to make yourself feel good, that’s like having sushi without wasabi. it’s wrong.
who are you to judge.

i’ve realised something terrible. have i stopped dreaming. did i lose my dreams to the world in this little red dot.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE SUTJIPTO!

if you were to become a boss, could you fire your friend?

we had another farewell party for eunice on monday night/tuesday morning. as in paaarrrrttyyy. squeezed in the hot room of a drunk girl. i still have the aftermath even until now. dont scratch.

on wednesday my block had something called the honour game at the rooftop. i never really liked anything held at the rooftop but this one was interesting. it’s like a guys versus girls kind of thing and each is supposed to dare the other party to do three things and they have to be done for the honour of the block. we only had enough time to do two for each. i had to bite an orange on a girl’s belly button blindfoldedly and karthik the nice guy almost spat on me. i had fun.
after the game, there was a touch rugby training in which i’m such a dummy. it’s all about running and passing and touching, and i can’t get it. it was my very first time playing lah.

just now we went to mos. had a mission to step on pat’s toes. mission accomplished. nothing much though.
and now i am coughing and coughing and coughing. the sorethroat is gone and here’s the coughing.

some lectures were missed, an assignment was done, student pass and concession pass were collected, webcasts are yet to be watched.

btw i’m going to teach again.

> My husband was working in a hospital as an IT
> engineer, as the hospital is planning to set up a database of
> its patient. And he knows some of the doctor quite well.
>
> The doctors used to tell him that whenever they have a
> headache, they are not willing to take PANADOL (PARACETAMOL).
> In fact,they will turn to Chinese Herbal Medicine or find
> other alternatives.
>
> This is because Panadol is toxic to the body,and it harms the
> liver. According to the doctor, Panadol will reside in the
> body for at least 5 years. And according to the doctor, there
> used to be an incident where an air stewardess consumes a lot
> of panadol during her menstrual as she needs to stand all the
> time. She’s now in her early 30’s, and she needs to wash her
> kidney (DIALYSIS) every month.
>
> As said by the doctor that whenever we have a headache, that’s
> because it is due to the electron/Ion imbalance in the brain.
> As an alternative solution to cope with this matter, they
> suggested that we buy 1 or 2 cans of isotonic drink (eg.100PLUS),
> and mix it with drinking water according to a ratio of
> 1:1 or 1:2 (simply, it means one cup 100plus, one cup water.or 2 cups
> water).
> Me and my husband have tried this on several occasions, and it
> seems to work well.
> Another method will be to submerge your feet in a basin of warm water
> so that it bring the blood pressure down from your throbbing head.
>
> As Panadol is a pain killer, the more Panadol you take, the
> lesser would be your threshold for pain (your endurance level for pain).
>
> We all will fall ill as we aged, for woman, we would need to
> go through childbirth. Imagine that we had spent our entire
> life popping quite a substantial amount of Panadol (Pain Killer)
> when you need to have a surgery or operation, you will need a much
> more amount of general anesthetic to numb your surgical pain than
> the average person who seldom or rarely takes Panadol ..
> If you have a very high intake of Panadol throughout your life
> (Migraine, Menstrual cramps) it is very likely that normal
> general anesthetic will have no effects on you as your body
> is pumped full with panadol and your body is so used to pain killer
> that you would need a much stronger pain killer, Morphine??
>
> Value your life, THINK before you easily pop that familiar pill
> into your mouth again. Please send this to people you care about.

it’s thursday already.

CAPS IS HIP. WE ALL LOVE CAPS. AND PAT IS ALWAYS DRUNK. PAT IS ONE HOT DRUNK GIRL. EUNICE IS GREEN AND REREN IS HUNGRY. CHEERS.

i got muscleaches and headaches. my throat hurts (and it’s called sorethroat, not soreneck). i sleep all day all night.
i’m having holidays withdrawal symptoms.

we had a surprise farewell bbq without bbq pit for eunice the eew girl in ecp on saturday, just after my painful softball clinic. three girls, bbq stuff for twenty people. we are indeed strong girls. it was a last minute thing but reren managed to gather twenty people for the bbq. if it were for me, i think at most five people would come. anyways, it was good to see those familiar faces and that familiar place again. sausages, fishballs, sotongballs, crabsticks, bananachocolates, thatlongstickthing, otah. i was eating nonstop. and that’s why the sorethroat. greedy people get sorethroat.
i hope eunice is happy. we love eu :D

when i have nothing to do, i watch joey or i sleep.

i am black. i was exposed to the sun again and again and again.
i am pink. pat is yellow, reren is blue. but they are not really yellow and blue.
i am blue black. softball ball is not a soft ball!

i’ve been very stupid the past few days.
i either think too much or think too little. i am an extreme thinker hahaha.
hahahhhaa. hahahhahaha. hahahh. so happy for what.

i lost my atm card. when i finally have money inside my account (after being declined for 30bucks!), i lost my card. it’s only the second time and i haven’t really lost anything much these days, so it’s forgiven lah. i have been using my sister’s atm card. i do feel guilty. when will i get my pocket money?
i bought a printer. when i couldn’t even pay 30 bucks using my atm card.

we zouked for nussu bash last night. good time, good company. i was high on panadol but i didn’t shake any table.

happy birthday indonesia. no matter how the world views you, no matter how ugly you look, no matter how insecure people feel living there, no matter how wrong things go, no matter how you think i don’t belong there, you are still a home to me. you build your people’s immunity, you teach them to be tough, you make us appreciate little things in life. we are the 23rd happiest people in the world (singapore 131st!). we’re going to buck up slowly and happily alright.
marilah kita berseru indonesia bersatu..

you can’t do a lot of things without your passport.

i skip breakfast and have supper after midnight instead. we would walk two bus stops to eat and drink unglam stuff. i don’t sleep late at night, i sleep early in the morning. i am online twenty four seven, msn is significant. clementi is the new orchard.
welcome to nus.
like shinfei says: so hall la you.

school started already. we can’t go supper so often anymore and we should sleep more right. i had three hours of sleep and two hours of lectures just now. i need some sleep.
i borrowed this book finding darwin’s god from the library and three archie’s from reren.

i could have gone to ntu. i could have taken maths or actuarial science. i could have stayed in pgp. i could have bought a softer bolster.