keep believing

i came out of the exam hall and walked to registrar’s office to submit my photo. i didn’t have my lunch before my paper, so i walked to science canteen and bought some food. i went back to hall, ate my luncher and had a short nap. then i went to pgp and stayed there for a long, informal meeting, then off to fongseng for supper. and we walked back to hall.
and that’s all the celebrations i’m going to have.

animal body: an engineering marvel, a wonderful piece of work by nature! i didn’t finish my studying for lsm1301, and i actually learnt more as i flipped my textbook to find the answers for the exam questions.
it’s interesting and at the same time, perplexing, how these people in the biology world know, in so much details, the amazing work of art, and use their knowledge and their created, limited ratio to go against the Creator Himself, thinking and telling everyone else that nature does it all.
you would think that since these people know His great great creations and how they work, they all should know Him more than most other people, and they would bow down and praise Him in awe.
well.
homo sapiens. sapiens means wise. we should live up to the name of our species.

the euphoria is over, and now comes the work.

one more paper on monday. people can go out and play during the weekend, while i still have to mug. though it feels as if exams are over.

twelve chapters for bio. sighs.

my sleeping time is so screwed. i’ve been sleeping early and waking up around this time.

and i will soon be asleep again.

how true.
It is the struggle of the natural man for self justification. He finds it only in comparing himself with others, in condemning and judging others. Self justification and judging others go together, as justification by grace and serving others go together.
Dietrich Bonhoeffer

i thank God for people around me, who are there, in good times and bad, in hard and soft studying, in laughter and tears, in joy and sorrow, in crappy and deep talks, in CN1111 and MA1506, in hunger and sofulltiliwanttodiee. thank you, thank you.

lesson of the day from anton: to make matlab chat with you.
>> sprintf(‘ Good Luck Erlin. Wish You All The Best in Your Exam :)’)

ans =

Good Luck Erlin. Wish You All The Best in Your Exam :)

thank you, matlab.

Guide me, O Thou great Redeemer
Pilgrim through this barren land.
I am weak, but Thou art mighty;
Hold me with Thy powerful hand.
Bread of Heaven, Bread of Heaven,
Feed me till I want no more;
Feed me till I want no more.

Open now the crystal fountain,
Whence the healing stream doth flow;
Let the fire and cloudy pillar
Lead me all my journey through.
Strong Deliverer, strong Deliverer,
Be Thou still my Strength and Shield;
Be Thou still my Strength and Shield.

When I tread the verge of Jordan,
Bid my anxious fears subside;
Death of deaths, and hell’s destruction,
Land me safe on Canaan’s side.
Songs of praises, songs of praises,
I will ever give to Thee;
I will ever give to Thee.

i’m fine. really.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
:D
really really.

let’s talk post exam. there is a church outing on 1st which i havent decided if i will go, mission trip meeting and pinus’ nusexplored on 3rd, pinus meeting and bbq at embassy on 4th, iscf agm and the economy talk at expo on 5th, 02 chalet from 4th to 6th, iscf camp from 7th to 10th, and mission trip 14th to 23rd. and i have to squeeze in between, moving out of hall, games and souvenirs for camp, mission trip preparations, and revamping pinus’ website. next, home sweet home and, hopefully, summer in china will follow. still waiting for His approval though.

thank God for today’s paper :)

after many complaints, i just have to list down the terms and conditions of talking to me in msn.
1. when i’m away, i’m really away, sometimes.
2. after i say what i want to say, i close the window..
3. ..which means that, sometimes, i forget that i have an unfinished conversation with you.
4. i treat everyone equal in the msn world, except for one person, who claims to use msn and appear offline just for my sake. how sweet is that.

and to mark the end of cm1502 in my life,
..Not only did these equations contain all the normal algebraic symbols but in addition they were liberally sprinkled with stars, daggers, and circles so as to stretch even the most powerful of minds.
Brian Smith, describing chemical thermodynamics.

two down, four more to go.
how is that halfway?
yea i can’t do maths.

the exams start tomorrow!

studying is good when you study study and suddenly it’s night already, when you have people around, to cheat and to dump and to complain to, when you end a day and you know you’ve done something that day, when you actually feel tired after studying.
studying is bad when you read your lecture notes, you stare for hours and you only see randomly arranged words floating, not making any sense, when you drink nescafe and you sleep almost immediately, when you feel like giving up, thinking that it is all in vain.

in the midst of hard studying (yes i mean hard studying, not studying hard), there were little good news and good things here and there which made the days brighter. i received yet another study bible as a gift, which made me feel it’s like i’m depriving others from reading the bible by having too many of them. i talked to my mom, it was her birthday on wednesday, oh i miss her so. my sister got herself a job in the company which was mentioned often in mno, good pay, good future, good culture, i’m so happy for her. plue and friends got a place, they are not going to be homeless, yay to them! we got the result of our project, i’m so proud of the team, it was all worth it. lastly, new/closer ties are being made, through mugging and cheating and dumping and sharing and praying.

praise the Lord.

this is truly not easy for me, but i believe, and i’ll continue to believe.

and she starts rationalising with herself for comfort.

if i still have the time to complain, i have way too much time.

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances,
for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.

despite the typical stress that a university student in singapore must have and the gruesome future in the university that is awaiting, chemical engineering is a fun course to be in. at least it is this semester.

think of all the spring rolls and tooties in the morning.
think of a canteen which limits the number of friends one can have lunch with.
think of full house tutorial classes.
think of the thirteen point five nine and pon-chak entertaining lectures, and a row of friends to sit with.
think of the kind souls in your msn contacts that you can nudge to help you with your assignments, and who will help, either by giving you fish or teaching you how to fish.
think of staying up the whole night with a bunch of other people, the night before deadlines, rushing assignments/lab reports last minute.
think of the people you can multiply joy and divide sorrow with.
think of gibbs and clapeyron.

oh i will miss this semester.

i havent prepared much for the finals and here i am doing a reflection on the semester.