keep believing

PGP’s fire alarm went off and disturbed my sleep for two consecutive nights so irritating can. Random fire alarms like these remind me of Dunman. We had our very first fire drill six years ago, on the night before everybody but me had to leave, I cried  while going down the stairs and everyone thought I was scared of the fire (it was a fire drill!). We had many many false alarms, we even had one on the night before my Geography Prelims paper. Ah, memories.

Another week is gone. There is nothing to highlight besides the fact that I have been irresponsible, towards studies and everything else. I didn’t even prepare for KTB.

I thank God that IF is over and for the people who were there to help (and I thank them too).

Happiness is to know the Savior,
Living a life within His favor,
Having a change in my behavior,
Happiness is the Lord.

Happiness is a new creation,
Jesus and me in close relation,
Having a part in His salvation,
Happiness is the Lord.

Real joy is mine,
no matter if teardrops start;
I’ve found the secret,
it’s Jesus in my heart!

Happiness is to be forgiven,
Living a life that’s worth the living,
Taking a trip that leads to Heaven,
Happiness is the Lord!

Soeharto was a great man. It’s kinda sad to see him end his life this way. He had the chance to shape the culture of world’s forth most populous country, he was trusted to write its history. Now, it is associated with corruption and terror, and in such a mess.

I guess great men have too many great choices in life, they have the power to change the world, to the better or worse. Soeharto made his choices.

So he’s gone now.

Two comments that I’ve been receiving from people:

You didn’t comb your hair.

You have so many pimples.

Hm.

She is living in her own little rainbow world..

about kecoa

i found the kecoa
it was on my shirt
it was alive

i freaked out like dont know what

i dreamt last night about so many so many kecoa… SO MANY KECOA…
i couldn’t sleep
i keep waking up like mad

and it’s actually in my room. in the bag.

-a friend of mine

One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory. Rita Mae Brown.

I can’t recall why I was made so upset last week. I’m a living testimony to the above quote. But I’m not happy about that. I forget things too easily, and it really.. sucks. We all know that remembering the past is important, history provides many lessons, what to do and what not to do in similar situations, the mistakes that you or other people have made in the past. Having a bad memory doesn’t only mean that I have much reduced lessons from the past, but also, missing out many important deadlines, appointments, etc in the future. As how Marita will put it, it sucks to the core.

School has been kind to me last week, but it’s so going to get meaner and meaner, with all the projects and labs and tutorials. It’s the same old struggle all over again: to be a good student.

I haven’t been busy with school work yet, was occupied with publicity for production, preparation for InFusion, ministry at ISCF, and being emo.. And I’m teaching again :)
The stuff that I do for production was initially enjoyable, til it starts to get exhausting, with all the pending and the uncertainties and the rather inconsistent requests. I’m not blaming anyone here. Being involved in the production, and also IF, exposes me more to the riches of my landwater (Tanah Air). So rich but not exploited well enough, so blessed but never grateful. How wasted.

I need to get my module mapping done. You know how some people worry about me more than I do about myself, God puts an end to their worry by getting me a bunch of nice people going on exchange with me, so I won’t be alone :) how can I not praise Him.
I need to get my phone fixed. It’s very spoilt, and the warranty will expire soon.

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Please do come if you’re free.

Everything is vanity
This Saturday, 10am-12, PGP

This is the kind of publicity that I do, not because I have to, but because it’s worth knowing.

I feel so dumb. I’m taking this GEM module alone this semester. I got lost for my first lecture for the module on Thursday morning, stopped at the wrong bus stop so I had to walk almost the entire science faculty to get to the lecture theatre. Didn’t print out the lecture notes, so I just sat there, trying to stay awake, and bored.

And I have just found out, that.. my lectures are supposed to be on Tuesdays and Fridays!! I went for the wrong lecture…………………………………

And it took me three days to realize this. I still have no idea what lecture it was.

Quoted from our minutes of meeting:

Erlin pun mensharingkan cerita pribadinya *censored*

So hip la.

Idleness and luxury are the devil’s jackals, and find him abundant prey.

In stagnant waters noxious creatures swarm, and neglected soil soon yields a dense tangle of weeds and briars.

Oh for the constraining love of Jesus to keep us active and useful!

-CH Spurgeon