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I should be studying, but..

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I was happily studying and drinking my orange juice in YIH canteen today, when I received a message from a friend saying: You got quite high.
And I immediately looked at my orange juice.. this, made me.. high?

Of course, no..
It actually referred to my test paper. The friend helped me collect my test paper, the one with a question about a piece of (biological) tissue which I mistook as tissue paper, which made me wonder about how thick a tissue paper could be the whole half an hour of the test. But I got quite high, for the test, yay..

There are so many things I could have written here that are worth your time and my time.. why am I writing a story about getting high of orange juice. It must be CN3124’s fault.

A funny story about a little girl’s faith..

A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales. The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though a whale is a very large mammal, its throat is very small. The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. The teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human, it was impossible. The little girl said, “When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah”.
The teacher asked, “What if Jonah went to hell?”
The little girl replied, “Then you ask him!”

I always love the story of Jonah and the whale.

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. – Matthew 6:21

Last exco meeting for the semester..

..and celebrating Indra’s birthday through skype!
The birthday is actually on 23rd.

Oh happy ones and holy!
Lord, give us grace that we
Like them, the meek and lowly,
On high may dwell with Thee
There, past the border mountains
Where in sweet vales the Bride
With Thee by living fountains
Forever shall abide

I want a laptop, I think I need a whole new set of wardrobe.
Last Saturday I was reminded that I really should stop thinking about what I want and what I think I need, even if I could very well justify them, and maybe should start asking myself, what can I do without?
Well. I can do without a laptop, I can do without new clothes/bags/shoes.

I’ve been ungratefully too happy. I’m currently enjoying the privilege of getting decent education, staying in a decent room, with a decent internet connection, decent food at decent prices, decent friends around me. I wrote “decent” because probably I’ve taken them for granted so much that I don’t think they are that wonderful, yes including you, my decent friends. Probably, everything is never good enough.
I’m earning more than US$1 per day which puts me above the poverty line. Yet I’m still in school, and I still have my parents and sisters who are able to support me financially. There are millions and millions of people who work probably hundreds of times harder than I do, and yet still can’t live properly. I’m so blessed, all by grace. What can I complain for, how could I. I’ve been living, too comfortably, too selfishly. Too happy.

Yes, I thank God for all the blessings, but what do I do with them? If I don’t wish to study, if I’m just wasting away all the resources that are with me or utilising them too selfishly, how would I take responsibility for all the blessings that I’ve received?

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Random quote:
Your body is emitting infrared and radiowaves. Listen to the energy your body emits, maybe there’s some music in there. – TYW, Heat and Mass Transfer webcast

Let’s welcome the reading week with this:

The sluggard craves and gets nothing,
but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied.
- Proverbs 13:4

Actually the Indo version, though of the same meaning, is more of a slap in the face to me..

Hati si pemalas penuh keinginan, tetapi sia-sia,
sedangkan hati orang rajin diberi kelimpahan.
- Amsal 13:4

And I’m not only talking about preparation for exams here, I only have four papers this time.

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I have tonnes of things to do after the exams: meetings and an AGM, the painful packing up and moving out and storing stuff, reflection of the semester, and all the meeting ups/outings! There are so many friendships that have been abandoned during the semester, and we need to pay off the debts before we forget each other permanently. And there is a newly forged friendship that really should be celebrated, oh I lovee this, in the ZOO! And of course, there are the graduating friends whom we have to bid farewell to as they go off to the working world.
But I only have four days to get all of them done before I fly off to the States. I can’t even go for ISCF camp :( Why would you do that to yourself, why why why..

Look at that, the reading week has just started and I’m already “worrying” about my post exams period.

There may be steep slopes, rocky or slippery roads, and rainy days, but this is our Father’s world, and it always will be. He watches over us :)

I think mothers are wonderful creatures. I wonder how women who are just women turn into mothers. Like does an embryo of sacrificial love grow in the heart of a pregnant woman as the embryo of the baby develops in her uterus?

It’s my mom’s birthday today.

I’m currently watching this series called How I met your mother. It was recommended by a friend who knew my by the name of Erlin and asked me, “What’s the ‘anda’?” when I gave him my email address.

I’ve only watched like four episodes, it’s funny I like! But then, I find myself getting more and more easily entertained now. I can even laugh out loud watching my Heat and Mass Transfer webcasts. So go and watch and judge it yourself.

Oh and the tea thing, doesn’t work for me. I’m too lazy to brew the leaves.

Alright, my post 11 April report:
Pimples, checked.
Pulled out hair, hm more like cut out hair.. checked.
Sleepless nights, thanks to coffee, checked.
Cans of coffee, checked checked.
Prayers and joyful noises unto God, hhm half checked oops..

It seems like I depended on Nescafe more than on God.

Anyway, I really think I should reduce my caffeine intake, it disturbs my sleep I feel.. Sherly recommended me to switch to tea. Since I have my rosebud tea and jasmine green tea leaves leaves from China, so yes, I will consider switching. I wonder how much she gets paid for saying all these things.
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (11:59 AM):
teh-o is good
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (11:59 AM):
aft u eat,
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (11:59 AM):
den u drink
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (11:59 AM):
it feels as if it clears away all the oil in ur system
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:00 PM):
den u dun get sore throat, coz ga bakal ada yg gatal2 di leher
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:00 PM):
n since it is hot, it is good for pencernaan
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:00 PM):
haha
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:01 PM):
n it got anti-oxidant, for free radicals, den helps to look prettier
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:01 PM):
hahahaa
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:02 PM):
coz when stress, got alot free radicals, den e anti-oxidant kills dem
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:02 PM):
hahaha
SherLy~ go! (repent, repent) says (12:02 PM):
im typing wat lita tellin me

Sounds convincing to me. And I’m brewing tea now.

Anyways, I think I’m turning more and more individualistic everyday and I don’t really like that..
I don’t need you or anybody else! I’m gonna make it on my own! You’ll see! You’ll all see! -Phoebe Buffay, Friends

Wah, baru dapet email kaya gini:

tampang lu beda banget skrg, banding waktu lu masih year 1 gt. dulu2 lu happy banget, skrg lu tampang susah. jangan stress2. kebanyakan pikiran lu.

Padahal I’m not even complaining.. yet. Hm. Coba compare compare, very different meh?

Before my second year..

Reren’s twentieth, early Jan 2007

And after..

Anggi’s twenty second, just last week
(Ria’s mom cooked for us that night btw, she’s our new hero! I don’t know why we didn’t take picture with Ria or her mom. Anyway, I’d actually prefer this kind of birthday celebration, the warm and homey kind where everyone can sit down and talk.)

Hehe, from the two pictures, the only damage that I can tell is that I’ve more pimples now. Or probably it’s just the magical power of neoprint which hide pimples and make you whiter ;)

Yah pokoknya, saya ga sesusah itu, ga sestress itu,
Still believing, still trying,
And still taken care of :)